Whose wish is this?
"Star light, star bright, the first star I see tonight . . ." I'm sure you all know the rest of this poem. And no doubt after reciting it, you make a wish on that first star of the evening.
I know I do.
That is when I can see a star. Where I live, I'm lucky when that happens. Up in the mountains, where I was visiting last week, a million stars pop into the sky at once. It's an orgasmic explosion, leaving you breathless.
Add to the equation a pool sized hot springs, good friends and great wine and well, there doesn't seem much else to wish for.
But as I floated on my back, gazing upwards, I made a wish (not telling what) and tossed it into the universe.
Throughout the years, I've wished for everything from having the boy in the seat next to me notice that I was alive to wishing for a cure for cancer. With stops in between for finding an editor who loves my latest project, an anti-aging cream that really works, and an anonymous donor to get me out of debt.
That night drifting around beneath the moonlight, I came to the conclusion that some wishes aren't really wishes at all.
By definition, a wish is a strong desire of wanting something to happen. Some of those things for which we ask from the Wish Fairy, we actually have to make happen on our own.
You can't simply wish for a better job. You have to put yourself out there.
You can't wish to lose weight. You have to sweat and burn.
You can't just wish for a happy marriage. It takes communication and God knows a lot of patience.
As the hot water seeped into my bones, I took it one step further. It seemed like some of the wishes I've made have gotten mixed up with someone else's.
I wished for this particular guy to ask me out, but he dated my friend instead. Another friend wished for lots of grandchildren. And I got that wish. My daughter wished for a puppy. And what shows up at our door? A mangy, stray cat. Certainly not my wish.
Maybe that's just how life is supposed to go. If we got everything we wished for, we could turn into a greedy, obnoxious person.
It takes more than wishing for something to change.
But just to be on the safe side, for those things that I cannot change, I'll keep on reciting - "wish I may, wish I might, have this wish, I wish tonight."